It all just kind of hit me today. The craziness of these past 6 weeks- workshops, meetings, trainings, setting up 2 classrooms, scrambling to get things ready, and starting my career. It was not the good kind of feeling that you want to get hit with. It was the feeling of just complete confusion, frustration, even failure. That last part is probably me just being hard on myself. I just wish I had known I was going to be teaching Kindergarten all summer that way I could have been more prepared. I just feel like I've playing catch up all week long, and not even impacting the kids. I know that they're 5, and for some this is the first school experience, but I don't want them to even waste a minute in the classroom because I'm not prepared, or because I could have done something better.
Everyone has been saying all along that the first week is the hardest, boy were they right. I'm just glad that tomorrow is Friday, and that it's a 3 day weekend. I can regroup, reorganize, and walk into next week feeling completely ready and sure of what I'm doing instead of just treading water.
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You're doing great, Christina!! This is how all new jobs are. Don't you worry. :)
well i knew about 3rd grade and I still feel the same way! haha, I love you!
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